"My mother protected me from the world and my father threatened me with it." - Quentin Chrisp
I would love to be able to sit hear and tell you that i had the picture perfect family. I played baseball with my dad, cooked cookies with my mom and we were all the best of friends, but my life didn't turn out that way, but then again, who's life really does?
However, i did get pretty lucky in the mom department.
My mom: Truth be told, i dont know a whole lot about my mom when she was younger. I know that she was incredibly beautiful (still is) i know she was converted to the church, and i know she married my dad, but that's about as far as my knowledge of little mom goes. BUT i do know a lot about bigger mom. My mom is pretty much the most incredible person ever. She is my most favorite person on the planet and one of my best friends. We, like everyone, went through our shares of ups and downs. We had a difficult relationship as i was growing up but because of it we have grown to be really close. I love my mom more then i can even begin to say! she has helped me through more then i think even she has realized. To be completely and totally honest, my mom saved my life more then once, and i will be forever greatful. So basically, if you want to know what my mom's like, all you have to do is think of the most amazing, wonderful, loving thing you can possibly imagine, and that's my mom.
My dad: Hm...this one is a little more difficult. Honestly, i know less about little dad as i did about my mom. I know he was very athletic (very hard to imagine now) i know he is super smart and loves music (he rocks at the guitar) but that's all i know, and to be honest, i dont know a lot about bigger dad either. Me and my dad had a very hard relationship when i was growing up, and we dont have much of one at all now. The sad thing about that is, that's the way i want it. Sure, i would love to have a dad that loves me and thinks the world of me, one that took me on daddy daughter dates and called me princess, but that wasn't the case in my life, and it's something i've had to learn to live with. As cruel as this may sound, i dont really consider him my father. I know that technically he is, but he never played that role for me. I guess that's just the way life is sometimes, you dont always get the parents you want. Luckily enough for me, one was amazing enough to make up for the other.
I dont know if i will be a good mother, i dont know if i will ever be a mother at all, but if there is one thing i have learned from my parents, it's that if/when i do have a family of my own, i will do absolutely everything in my power to make sure that my kids have the kind of relationship with their father that i always wanted with mine, and the relationship with me their whole lives, that i've had with my mom for part of it. It sounds cheesy, but i want a gilmore girls type relationship with my kids, and im going to make sure that happens, or im not having kids at all lol!
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